Entry #2

so i've changed the color and layout of the blog and performed all sorts of other random setting changes all in the name of stalling from writing an actual new post. : )

i've also done some reading of other blogs... as if that would solidify in my mind what i should write; or what types of things i'd write.

my writing has a few themes: God or religion, family matters mostly to do with children, whimsical things about friends or friendship, race (from the perspective of an African-American), and the overwhelmingly large portion of subject matter is relationships; as in mine with the opposite sex. i have no clue why most movies or stories give the impression that all you need to do to get someone to fall in love with you for ever after is write them a poem. i've tried it several times, and it ain't true!

i can't seem to help but to write a poem about or inspired by the guy who happens to take up most of my day-dreaming thoughts. however, as i've already stated that sharing the writing usually gets me nowhere, i have contemplated not sharing anymore. i don't think that i'd be able to stop myself from writing. it helps me get out things that conversation, or arguments just don't fully express. i get a sense of resolution, once i have a completed draft, read it over and it says exactly what i was feeling in an ingenious and creative way ; )

so unless i become a lesbian; (which is highly unlikely. we'll say that religion is the main reason; but it probably is more so due to the fact that i apparently am not attractable enough for lesbians to give me the time of day anyhow. : ) ) i think i will disregard the urge to share a love or , 'really like you', or 'can't stand you anymore' poem with a guy. guess i'll just post them here.

on a side note (2nd side note; i have side notes a lot) i use instant messenging abbreviations/symbols when i write a lot; can't help it really. but i hate when i end a sentence with any of the faces, as i did before, and it's included in some parenthetical side note of mine, because then it just looks weird.... OK side note over. : )

something else random is that i feel obligated when i write to spell things correctly, to use grammar properly and punctuation. i feel slightly, guilty for lack of better words... i feel like someone who is a 'real' writer will chance upon the blog and say, "oh look at her use of semicolons! this is garbage, she can't be serious!" honestly i'm more into the art of writing then the semantics. i hated grammar class; it was absolutely ridiculous. no one really needs to know the names of the parts of a sentence... unless they are a grammar teacher! anyhow, please just excuse things that may not be correct. i'm just trying to write here. : )

well i guess that's good for entry #2.